How to Bankrupt Your Business, Destroy Your Family, and Lose Your Mind

Well, it had to happen sooner or later, I suppose.

In today’s episode I share my own story of my decent into madness. Beginning with my early childhood flirtations with hypochondria, I take you all the way through my battles with depression, anxiety, agoraphobia, and depersonalization, right the way through to hitting rock bottom in early 2015 when I experienced a brief period of suicidal ideation.

If that doesn’t sound morbid enough, on the way we’ll encounter adoption, drugs, prostitution, strip clubs, brothels, lies, infidelity, gangland violence, ambition, failure, bankruptcy, nudists, modern art, tongue piercings, and my illustrious career as a dog shit picker-upper.


I’ve included some photos and links below to add a few visuals to the narrative, or just in case anyone thinks I might be telling porkies pies.


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4 replies
  1. Gary Meade
    Gary Meade says:

    Call me a total weirdo Danny, but it was a pleasure to listen to this episode…..the whole 2 hours of it. I personally prefer the anecdotal over the academic, and found this one to be far more interesting than some of the previous, where sometimes I felt frustrated listening to a person who to me felt disconnected from the struggle they were attempting to treat. You have an incredible story and I’m keen to see your blog and YouTube for more.

    • Danny Whittaker
      Danny Whittaker says:

      Thanks, Gary. Yeah, I get that. I will be exploring more lived experience perspectives. I’ve been dragging my feet because it felt a bit hypocritical to ask other people to spill their guts while I remained vague about my own story.

      Anyway, I don’t think there’s any risk of me being accused of ambiguity after this episode. ~ Danny

  2. Chris
    Chris says:

    Thank you Danny for this look into some of your journey so far. The more I listen to the stories of others and reflect on my own, it seems to suggest to me that our experience of living is something that happens through us rather than by us – We are shaped and directed by so many influences constantly, most of which we are completely unaware of,what David Smail referred to as distal power, yet we believe we have more control than perhaps we do at the proximal level.

    We can describe/tell stories about what happens to us from our limited sensory stimulations and we automatically, invent, embellish, dream, fantasize layer upon layer – we are subject to many perceptual biases and blindness a good example is the invisible gorilla test where we see just the act of a simple counting test can prevent us from seeing significant changes to what is right in front of us.

    With his in mind I hope you can have more compassion for your lived experience Danny, many businesses fail within the first 5 years and it seems that what makes a success is largely down to random luck resources- right ideas, right time, right conditions, political, economic etc, right connections who you know etc.

    It is a strange world – here we are a loving predator species currently using earth like a toddler in a toy box, smashing and grabbing whatever we can – the political, economic, class etc systems we are born into accentuate the predator in us and diminish the loving capacity and we wonder why so many suffer.

    What if different systems came into being that focus on managing the predator while building up our immense untapped capacity for love?

    • Danny Whittaker
      Danny Whittaker says:

      Hi Chris,

      Thank you for your input. As always, a very erudite perspective.

      I think what haunts me isn’t so much my inability to navigate the circumstances that were beyond my control, but refusing to properly navigate the ones that were; being fully aware at the time that I could (and should) have lanced the boil, but instead, choosing pride over providence, so to speak, and rather than drown myself alone, I dragged other people down with me.

      That’s tough to live with. And so it should be. ~ Danny


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